My Mammy

Tomorrow is the 1st anniversary of my grandma's death. It will be a sad day but I will try so hard to be there for my mother. My grandma had been in a nursing home for about 3 years when she died. It was a terrible day after I received the call that she had passed in the middle of the night. I cried so hard. The weird thing about that day was my daughter had been at school when I got the phone call and when she got home I told her that I needed to talk to her about something. We sat down on the couch together and I said, "Honey, I need to tell you something." and she responded, "Mama, you don't have to tell me. I already know that Mammy died.". OMG...WHAT? How in the world would she have known that? She wasn't home when I got the call and she hadn't seen or talked to anyone that knew. I was flabbergasted at her response to me. I asked her how she knew and she said, "I don't know Mama, I just knew it." So weird! A couple of weeks later she woke up in the morning kinda sad and told me she had a dream about my grandma, or what she thought was my grandma (Mammy), because she looked so much younger and her hair was dark and not gray. But she thought it was her because she was wearing the same blue dress that she had been buried in. Even weirder considering that Sylvia Browne says that when we die we become 30 again in heaven.

So anyway, tomorrow will be a hard day and I ask for prayers and/or well wishes for my grandma (Mammy) and our family. I really do believe that she is at peace and is no longer in any pain and happy that she is finally free from the nursing home that she hated so much. She is now in heaven looking down on us with my grandpa that died when my mom was 8, by her side. There were so many things that I wished I had said to her before she died but I know she knows what's in my heart. We all miss her dearly and this post is in dedication to her.

I miss you Mammy! I would do anything in the world to give you one last hug and hear your voice saying my name one more time. I will see you again someday when it is my turn to be called Home. God bless you.